Where in the world have I been?

I'm sorry to those of you who do read my blog,I haven't had much to say lately. I've been busy editing my book and working on my copy right,amongst trying to figure out who I am. I hope to be back blogging  soon!

What does it take.....

What does it take to be successful in life?

Honestly I don't think any body knows what it actually takes to be successful in life, I think we all have our own ideas and methods of ways that we believe will make our lives successful.

There is always the EDUCATION aspect.

People believe that higher learning leads to a successful life and lifestyle. There are studies that prove the more education you have the more likely your chances are at being successful in life.

Let's say a person who has their masters degree may be more successful in life than someone who just has a H.S Diploma because more jobs are available to them due to their higher education.

Some people believe that having a successful life is based strictly on LUCK. 

I guess its like saying life plays favorites.

Someone who constantly wins the lottery may think that their life has become successful because they have been lucky enough to win the lottery.

 I've heard some people say that to have successful life is all about relying on TALENT.

This belief means that you use your talent to make your life successful for example Chris Brown,his talent(s) have paved the way for him to be successful in life.

A-lot of us combine these ideas and believe that....

....HARD WORK, EDUCATION, LUCK, and DETERMINATION....

help a successful life form. Personally I'm not really sure  if there is exactly a way to define what it takes to have a successful life because it all depends on the individuals meaning of what a successful life is. We all have different goals and expectations of what we want in life. In my opinion being successful in life means living to your own accord, setting out to reach your goals, and aspiring to follow your dreams.

Don't let any one else set your standards on what being successful in life means,march to the beat of your own drum!

IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT THEY SAY!!

I created this video to let people know that as long as you love yourself and believe/trust in who you are it doesn't matter what the people around you are saying.

I love to cook!

Lately I've been thinking maybe I should be a CHEF! 

I really enjoy cooking and it's something I have a passion and a drive for. I don't know why I haven't went to culinary school but that is seriously something that I'm considering. I've always enjoyed watching cooking shows, and every since I was kid I have watched my mother,aunts, and grandmother cook. I like creating different recipes and even though sometimes those creations suck other times they are really awesome! I think cooking is one of those things that I enjoy doing but if it were my job I might hate it. I've always wanted to own my own restaurant, one of those cozy restaurants where you can just come to enjoy some good food and relax. If I owned my own restaurant I could cook some days and others just over see everything,Right? Restaurants seem to be one of the hardest things to maintain in today's economy so that is kind of discouraging.I would like to work on my baking skills so that I can make all those fancy cake designs that I see on TV. I watch people like Rachel Ray and get really inspired. She is so down to earth and fun,if I were to be a chef she would be my inspiration. I guess I will figure out my cooking dilemma one day!

Below are a few pictures of random pictures I took of food I prepared.

                                                                               Nachos.

                                                                             

                                                                                  Fresh Salsa.

                                                                            Ham scramble with wheat toast.

                                                                         Meatloaf,cheese potatoes,and greens.

                                                                             Bacon,eggs,pancakes.

                                                                            Pork chops cooked with onions,peppers,and tomatoes.

Chicken breast, fresh broccoli, and potatoes with parsley and a garlic butter sauce.

Love?

People constantly try to put a definition on what love is but in my opinion you can't. Love is an emotion and when it comes to love the feeling is different for everybody. You can't define a word that holds a different meaning to everyone. "What is love", will always be an age old question because love has many critics so therefor it will always have many definitions. I hate when people say,"Your too young to know what love is." Love doesn't have an age minimum. Love is something that just happens regardless if your 15 or 50, it just happens. Other people can't tell you if what you feel is love or not because they aren't the ruler of your heart. Granted some people don't know the difference between  

LOVE and LUST

but again if it's not your heart who are you to label another persons thoughts or feelings? I don't think love is something any one can control you simply can't help if you love someone or not.
A lot of people say,"Fuck love" but I think once they find the one that was meant for them their perspective will change. Yes sometimes love does hurt but in the same breath it is a beautiful feeling and there isn't anything like loving someone who loves you back. I'm not a love guru but I do think that there is somebody for everybody and I do think that "The ultimate love story" is finding the person that you absolutely can't live without, the person you care about more than you care about yourself.

I've always dreamed of having a fairytale love story like the ones you read in books or see in movies but the truth is you have to make your own fairytale. You have to create your own happy ever after. 

 The biggest part of love is you have to live it according to your own terms you can't define love off of somebody else's feelings, because another persons feelings may not express how someone makes you feel. Before you give up on love, give it a chance. You will be surprised where love decides to finally bloom!

Check out the two quotes below and I will see you all next blog!

At the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet.
--Plato

Love can touch us one time and last for a life time, and never let go until we're gone.
--Unknown(From Titanic)

CHAR (The Bad Girls Club)

First off let me start off by saying......

WHY THE FUCK IS CHAR ON THE SHOW?

I watch the show for entertainment purposes and she messes that up for me. Granted the show is already full of drama but this heffa brings more drama than it's worth. She claims Nikki and Lauren are so childish but she stirs shit up between them and the other house members for no reason. The chick is 27 or 28 and has a corporate job, why in the world would you even want to be apart of some shit like the Bad Girls Club. Someone as sophisticated and classy as she claims to be shouldn't even want to be apart of such madness. 27 isn't old but most of the Bad Girls are in their early twenty's so 9 times of 10 the things that their doing a 27 or 28 year old has already done, and probably is pass it on top of such the Bad Girls Club is all about being crazy and having fun......

Again why is Char on the show? 

I can't stand when the brawd says,"Play with it and rotate." What in the hell does that even mean? There are so many things that she does to show that she is a coward. The minute Lauren hit her in the face she walked away and started to cry, what happened to being
BILLY BADASS?
I know it isn't easy living in that house but don't go walking around like your better than people and above everything else don't be slick with your words and not be able to back them up. She really thinks she runs the house but deny's that she ever said that when the tapes clearly prove other wise. She is one of those people who does things when they are convenient and expects everyone to follow her lead. Fuck that! It seems like every time Char gets into with Nikki or Lauren one of the other girls is there to back her up and when they aren't she backs down. No matter where you are in life you need to be able to back yourself up with our without other people and Char simply can't do that. I think her problem is that she is insecure and she feels threatened by the younger girls. What killed me was when she was talking to Tanisha and the caller asked why she hadn't brought any one home. She said because her standards were high and pretty much that she was looking for something serious. WTF? Honey you don't go on the Bad Girls Club and party every fucken night and expect to find Mr. Right.
GET OVER IT!!!!

I really just can't stand her uppity want to be.....
H.B.I.C(Head Bitch In Charge)

Okay I won't waste my time on her any longer I will see you all next blog!

Job Interview

I don't have much to say today because I'm on such a high right now about this job interview. I have an interview tomorrow for a customer service job with a company that does advertising. My fingers are crossed and I've prayed on it so I'm going to walk in there tomorrow with my game face on and my head held high.
Wish me luck!

JOB HUNTING!!!!

 Well I have been UNEMPLOYED for almost two months now and I'm going insane. I really would like a job that is secure so I can finally move out of my aunts house into my own apartment. Today I took it upon myself to apply at the Detroit Zoo but considering the fact the that I don't like being outside and I'm scared of most animals, I really don't know how much help I will be if I were to be hired. I refuse to work in a fast food establishment again unless of course I was in dire need of money, which I'm not but than again I am!!!! I have an over the phone interview tomorrow for a summer camp position in Chicago but again I'm not to excited about working outside, plus I would have to come out of pocket to go to Chicago. There goes that darn phrase "IT TAKES MONEY TO MAKE MONEY". I also applied to Best Buy but those bastards never call. I really cant be picky at this point, some days I just wish my previous job would call me back and say,"Hey Amber we really need you back in the office." Wishful thinking, RIGHT? I would jump for joy but I guess that job is and will stay in the past. Looking for a job is most certainly stressful especially when businesses tell you to complete ON-LINE applications but never review them. I want to be out of my aunt's house by DECEMBER 5th, which is my 21st birthday. That goal isn't looking to realistic right now. I've applied at Hotels, Walmart, Meijers, CVS, and more but still
NO CALLS.....................

I'm extremely HOPEFUL that I will find something one of these days. I feel like I'm one application closure to a job or at-least I hope that I am because I'm tired of lint being the only thing in my pockets!!!!

If tomorrow never comes

I stumbled upon this Lyfe Jennings song,"If Tomorrow Never Comes." I've listened to this song several times in a row and it really has me thinking about my life and the choices I've made. Nothing in this world is promised yet we waste so much time and energy being mad or dwelling on things/people that have no relevance in our lives. We spend so much time being angry at the people we love or trying to avoid our feelings until we find a way to place every little letter and sentence together to fit perfectly. We tend to think that apologies can wait but after all  WHAT IF TOMORROW NEVER COMES?

I really don't have much to say I just want you all to listen to this song.

Until next time, enjoy your family, learn to forgive and move forward, rejoice in the day that the lord has made!

I think this quote is a perfect way to close out this blog.

"Sometimes it's the smallest decisions that can change your life forever."
- Keri Russell

My business...Isn't your business

Today was another lame day in The Life of Amber. I didn't do anything but my day was pretty smooth.

Today's topic is about (M.Y.O.B) minding your own business. I'm a pretty private person, I keep most people on a need to know basis very few people know me on a personally level. Personally I don't care who you are if I don't want you to know something I'm not going to tell you. I really get pissed off by people who think they are entitled to know all of my business when it has NOTHING to do with them. I can't even fully get into the situation right now because I'm preoccupied but I think I made my point, people just need to worry about what concerns them and keep their noses out of other peoples lives. It's like people don't have anything interesting going on in their lives so they feed on other peoples business and relationships, not a good look.
That's all she wrote.

Nothing to say

 

I really don't have much to talk about. My day was pretty LAME. I went to Walmart and got irritated with all the shoppers(vultures). People piss me off they would rather squeeze by or wait stupidly instead of saying excuse me. Sometimes I will just be ignorant and stand in the way just because someone won't say excuse me. I have to hold my tongue most days because I tend to want to go off which is really uncalled for. Other than shopping I had to drive in the snow. It's fine and dandy that it's snowing but where were the damn plow trucks? It was so sloppy that you couldn't see the lines in the road people were just driving, playing follow the leader. I'm not a fan of snow but I can deal with it but between stupid drivers, and slush snow was my worst enemy today. My car on the other hand really isn't a fan of snow, she runs but she doesn't run like she does in the summer :-(  BUMMER!

That was pretty much my day. I did text my ex and it turns out that he does have a new girlfriend but he thinks it's okay because he loves me and doesn't love her. First he said it was just a facebook crush now he confirms that she is his girlfriend. He misses me and her but he still wants to be with me but he's with her. How dumb does all of that sound? It's okay because I am going to just move on and let him be a thing of the past, nothing will ever change. 

That is pretty much everything that happened today, pretty boring huh? Well I won't bore you any more, maybe on Tuesday when I write my next blog something interesting will happen....maybe not but I will see you then!

The Last Song

I'm not a big Miley Cyrus fan but out of boredom I watched the movie she was in," The Last Song." I didn't get to see the beginning so I will have to watch it again but basically the film is about a girls relationship with her father. After watching the movie I began thinking about my own dad. The girl (Miley) has a rocky relationship with her dad but goes to spend the summer with him and her brother. Towards the end of their summer she finds out that he is ill. I'm not sure what ailed him because I missed that part, but she began thinking about her relationship with him and the distance between him and her music.  I related to this movie because much like Miley's character I push people away and I'm not always the nicest to my dad but it would kill me if something ever happened to him. The whole time I was watching the movie I was thinking about my dad and myself. It's funny how we push the people that we love the most away. Although I may not always act like it but my dad is my world and without him I would lose my mind. My dad is the one who taught me how to ride my bike, he pitched my my first baseball and helped me shoot my first hoop. I listen to people talk poorly about their fathers and feel bad because they never got to experience what it was like having a great dad. The Last Song made me open my eyes and it shed so much light on how much family and friends mean to me. You don't turn your back on the people you love and you must forgive yourself and people for the hurt they've caused so that you can move forward in life. I recommend that people watch The Last Song and see what they can draw from the movie.

My dad and I back in "09" at my H.S Graduation

It's Monday AGAIN

           

          Well the weekend is over so it's back to the boring hustle of everyday. I wake up, take a shower, check my email, then watch T.V. and I might work on my book if my creative juices are flowing. I feel like I have no life LITERALLY. I don't have friends any more because everyone seems to have their head stuck up their ass. I don't have a boyfriend because apparently I did everything wrong and he was Mr. Perfect. My life is just majorly boring. Maybe I will start going to clubs and meeting random strangers? Nah... It's weird how one minute your life can be going great and the next it's in a downward spiral. I know my life isn't as bad as the next persons and it could actually be worse but it still sucks kind of bad.(Giggles) I won't complain because I have my health, that sounds like such a cliche but it's true. Some folks are sucking food through a tube struggling to breathe, so I should be thankful. I really don't have much to talk about today but I'm trying to be consistent and dedicated to   this blog so I had to write something, its not like any body reads it any way. My weekend was pretty lame besides Friday. Friday I went over to my sisters place with her roommate and one of their friends, that was pretty fun. I managed to crack a bottle of nail polish on their table and it went everywhere, it was pretty funny even though I was scrubbing the carpet until I couldn't feel my hands. I guess I've said all I had to say since I didnt have dilly squat to say in the first place. 

Be blessed..or is it Stay blessed? Well you decide!

“Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.”

---Ashley Smith

My heart to Yours

I figured if I scribbled these words across the page it would help me figure out my thoughts.

I thought that maybe if I put every thing that I was thinking on to one page I could figure out why my emotions were dancing so aimlessly around in my heart.

My mind is filled with lifeless memories of you and I.

I hate closing my eyes because the image of you holding me constantly reappears.

I lay awake at night remembering how you use to kiss me or how you held me when we watched TV.

I tried to hold us together but it doesn't do much good when we were already separated from the start.

I wonder where we went wrong you blame me and I blame you but the truth is we both played a part.

For so long I thought this was an illusion but it's an unfortunate reality.

I was hoping we could go the distance but it was the distance that drew a line between US....

Now that you and I are no longer I feel ultimately alone.

 in the morning I have nothing to wake up too and my nights are sleepless while my head replays all the memories that I have of you.

My once sunny days have been replaced with dreary skies and salty tears but I guess you don't know LOVE unless you know PAIN.....Right?

I could have taken the initiative to initiate conversation and I could have been less moody and worked on my attitude but there is no room for apologies because I am human and just like you we've both made mistakes.

I won't sit and point fingers but I will be woman enough to take the blame.

We have been divided by hasty decisions and confused by words.

Regardless of everything that has happened I wouldn't take back one thing because everything we went through made you a better you and me a better me.

Where I am...............Where I want to be.

     

   Right now my life isn't what I want it to be and I'm trying to change it but it's like I take two steps forward and get knocked back ten. I guess this is just apart of life but it is so frustrating. Now that I've done the whole college thing I realize that I should have went to an out of state school. I probably would be happier and more focused on school. I feel like I'm  alone on a dirt road but there are people behind me telling me what I should and could be doing. Of course I'm fully aware that this is my life therefore I must take responsibility for myself but sometimes its nice to have someone in your corner, someone encouraging you and supporting you. Sometimes I feel like my family contradicts themselves, they encourage me to do one thing then its like they go back on their word and criticize my choices behind wanting to do something. Sometimes I just want to run and hide, sometimes I just wish I were invisible.

      

      Maybe I'm over reacting right now, maybe not...Nonetheless these words on this page are the only time that I get to express what is really on my mind. I feel like writing is my own escape from my thoughts, I let my hands do the talking that my mouth won't. I know where I am certainly isn't close to where I want to be. I want to have my own place so I can walk around naked if I wanted to or be loud at two o'clock in the morning and not have to worry about my aunt or mother telling me to be quiet. I will be twenty one this year and I still haven't gotten it together. I can't seem to find a sturdy job and I won't be able to return to school because of my tuition balance. I want to be at the point where money isn't an issue. It's sad that I have to change colleges because I can't afford to pay off my tuition balance, so I'm starting from scratch. I guess I don't believe in myself as much as I should. I will pull it together one day but for now I just feel stuck like I've lost my way.

Wardrobe Failure

        I guess skinny jeans for men are the new thing? I don't know what to think about seeing a man walk around with pants that are almost as tight as mine. I'm all for self expression through dressing and etc. but GEESH don't pants that tight hurt your man parts? I always see guys with the tight skinny jeans on then they wear the big biscuit shoes, yuck! You also have the guys that will where their pants two sizes too big and you can see their butt, that is unattractive too. I don't want a man to wear nut huggers but I don't want the whole world to be able to see he under-roo's.

FAIL

Bad Girls Club

   

    I will admit that I am a fan of Oxygen's Bad Girls Club even though the girls are beyond retarded. On tonight's episode the girls really showed that they are stuck up Char's ass, everyone was against Nikki but since Char mad "Peace" with her everybody decided that they would reunite. Personally when I do or don't like someone it's a personal preference not because I have a ring leader and him/her makes the decision for me. It's always the same with every season, one minute all the girls are cool.....the next they are singling someone out or attacking the new girl(s). Oh my goodness then this new girl Ashley comes into the house with her conceded ass stirring up even more drama!!!! I couldn't do it. You could never place me in  a house with a group of catty females because someone(Me) would be taken off in a police car. Being on a show like the Bad Girls Club means none stop fun, it's a freaking vacation yet they turn into "Cat Wars." 

      I think it's kind of funny how they all say that they are there to have a good time but two seconds later they are pulling someones hair out, or tossing drinks in each others face. I mean come on now drink your liquor, shake that ass, and go to sleep. A lot of that crap is unnecessary, like Nikki calling the police after Char dumped her stuff in the pool. If that heffa wanted to play that game we would of just both been swimming for our clothes not calling the cops, ha she's a real "BAD GIRL" huh? Idk I guess living there is harder than it seems but if everybody kept it real from jump and stayed that way I think it would be alright. 

This sounds like something that one of them would say....."Look at me and look at you. Now tell me, hunnie, who is jealous? Me or you?"

     I wonder who will be the last bad girl standing this season?

Scatter Brain

    

Well today is Saturday big whoop-tee-do. Several people have asked me to do something but I wouldn't be surprised if I stayed home to work on my book and watch movies. I don't know what it is about me and weekends but they never go as planned. Everyone I know always wants to go to club and that isn't me. I don't have anything against going but Detroit clubs have way too much drama. I am crazy and would end up putting someone in the hospital for getting all in my face acting crazy so I refrain myself from being in those type of situations.I'm the type of person who would rather go bowling than go to the club and grind on someone I won't remember the next day.

      Moving on......I heard from Tate Publishing yesterday. Yeah reading is really fundamental, if I would have read their website I would have known they were a CHRISTIAN publishing company. One of their reps called me and we talked about my book for them to publish it I would have to change the language and take out a few parts all together. As I said in my previous blog," Why would I work so hard on something then put it in someone else's hands to change?" I kindly thanked him and told him that I wasn't interested. Some of you are probably reading this like girl your crazy and others may agree with me. When you work so hard on something you don't just up and alter it to please other people. My final decision is to just self publish that way it can stay exactly how I want it, after all the book isn't for children.

      In my last blog I told you all how my boyfriend decided to break up with me. It turns out that he was just mad. WTF? Your having a bad day so you take it out on me? I don't know what to do, I want to be with him but that really hurt me. I will have to do some serious thinking. That is all I will say about that matter, well for now any ways..(Giggles)

      

       Now that I think about it, I hope my bestfriend comes over so we can act silly and just keep each others minds off the things that are bothering us. The picture exhibits one of many silly memories that we have had.

       Well until next time!

"Intellectual growth should commence at birth and cease only at death."

                                                                        Albert Einstein

Love Lost

    Well today my boyfriend decided to break up with me or today he decided that he didn't have time for a relationship. Now almost two years ago we met and he neither of us wanted a relationship but for the last six months we have been waist deep, straight head over heels for each other, or so I thought. Before we entered the relationship six months ago I bluntly asked him.."Are you sure your ready to commit?" He said yes. So from that point on we were together. Eventually loved formed. I was there for him when he had nothing and nobody, I was there when he needed to talk or he needed someone to hold onto. I believed in him when everyone else doubted him, now all of sudden he doesn't have time for me. This is the catch he said," I want to be with you just not right now." What kind of bullshit is that, do my feelings not matter any more? Six months later and your not ready? I'm not going to put my life on  hold so he can decide what he wants to do or to find time for a relationship. I worked almost everyday but that didn't stop me form taking him to work or waking up out of my bed in the middle of the night to take him home. I juggled school and work but never once said I didn't have time for him. I'm mad as hell and my feelings are hurt. Life goes on,RIGHT?

 "The love that last the longest is the love that is never returned."
William Maughham

Until next time, watch who you give your heart to.

What Now?

Well if you follow blog you know that I was waiting to hear back from Dorrance Publishing. After waiting three long weeks I got the email that I had been waiting for. The email was a confirmation that the company wanted to publish my book,but the catch was I would have little involvement in the process. Why in the world would I write a book then put it in someone else's hands to do as they please, I thanked them for the offer and proceeded with my search for a publisher. I've decided to go with a self publishing company but considering the only money that I have in my pocket is a whole dollar I'm at a stand still. I just lost my job so I don't have any money to spare. I'm only twenty years old so I have plenty of time to publish a book,RIGHT!? I have been working so hard and it really pisses me off that I can't moved forward until I come up with at-least fifteen hundred dollars. 

I'm stuck with the question WHAT NOW? I am more than determined to get this money because publishing this book is the biggest GOAL and DREAM that I have right now. This experience really makes me understand the phrase," You don't grind you don't shine."

Until next time..............................!

"Have courage for the great sorrows of life and patience for the small ones; and when you have laboriously accomplished your daily task, go to sleep in peace."
Victor Hugo

Just trying to pass time

    Today marks day SEVEN, one full week out of FOUR WEEKS of waiting for a response from this publishing company. Every since I submitted my manuscript I have been driving myself crazy. At night I stay awake looking at the ceiling imagining myself as a published author, I can picture my book on the shelves at Borders and several other book stores around the country. I want this so bad I think I'm making myself sick. Every time my phone rings I hope its my publisher with good news, I must check my emails every 20 minutes. Apart of me knows that this particular publishing company won't want to publish my book but another part of me is yelling congratulations your getting a book deal!! I've wanted to write a book for so long and now that I've finally done it,I'm on edge.

   I really need to find a hobby before I lose my fucking mind. Maybe I can pick up knitting or baking? I'm like a little kid waiting for Santa to come. It's like I gave myself an adrenaline shot that I can't seem to come down off of. I pray to God that I get published because if I don't I will  be back at square one and I don't think I will react very well to that. I'm so anxious I can't even focus on writing and I can't even write an interesting blog. I just need a yes or no before I end up in a crazy house biting myself and bouncing off walks, just kidding. I have to learn how to control my excitement or something because this waiting by the phone and having my lap top strapped to my hip isn't cool.


Until next time readers I will leave you with this quote.

"Only as high as I reach can I grow, only as far as I seek can I go, only  as deep as I look can I see,only as much as I dream can I be."   Karen Ravn

The Countdown

    Well I recently wrote a book. I spent a lot of time during the school year writing this book when I was supposed to be focusing on school and I spent nearly my whole summer trying to finish what I started. Finally after several all nighters I finished my first fictional book. I never expected what started as a short story  with only a few paragraphs to turn into a small novel. After countless amounts of hours,days,weeks,and months trying to find a publisher, printer, or any one who was willing to give me a shot as a writer I took a leap of faith. On December 29, 2010 I submitted my book to a publishing company. I was told I would have a decision back from them in 30 days. I'm only on day number 4 and I feel like I've been waiting a life time. Writing a book appears easy but there are so many more steps to writing a book than actually writing it. My biggest dream and goal is to become a distinguish author. I am losing my mind trying to count down the days until I hear a decision from the publishing company. I've never wanted something so badly that I could taste it. I will be crushed if they don't want to publish my work but I won't stop I will continue to send my manuscript out until someone is willing to give me a chance as a writer. In closing I want to say when you want something go after it. Never let any one tell you what you can or can't do, be in charge of your own dreams and success.

"Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe." 

Gail Devers.  

The Introduction:Amber Jeannette

I felt like before I even began blogging I should introduce myself. My name is Amber and I am currently 20 years old. A college student who has absolutely no idea what I'm doing.There are several reasons why I chose to start blogging but the main reason is to share my journey through life. Everybody has a story to tell and in my opinion blogging is one of the best ways to share/tell your story. I probably will have several random post about several aspects of my life but some how they will all tie together. My thoughts are every where and blogging is my way to tame them..Strap yourselves in as we prepare to take this journey together!

  Then

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Now